Thanks becki. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I would love to have a day where I didn't think or feel anything like I have done for the past year. It's really degrading and unfair. I don't understand. Do you know where I'm coming from? I just think it's so ridiculous that this has happened... I think life is ridiculous. And yet people go about their lives as if it's no big deal… I want whatever it is they have. I would rather be anyone else but me.