Depression Society MkII

Laus

I have a 10:15 lecture, so not too bad. Haven't had any alcohol tonight - still hoping I'll sleep. Feel quite low. Just watched a film - was good, but has made me think about life and death, which I cba with right now.

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Laus

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jonathan122

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How are you?

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So worried Gav's going to be mad with me. Sent him a long message on Facebook and he replied saying

'Liz, I will reply when I have spare time. It's 2.30am here and I'm getting up at 7am to go skiing! Please send photos to disco address. Thanks babe. xx'

For some reason, I'm scared he's going to be stern with me because of the way he said my name with no hello or anything. I've just replied saying 'ok, i'll try not to worry that I'm going to get a stern reply later. I can probably guess what you're going to say but please don't be too mean to me :frown:

Will send photos in a bit. Hope you enjoy skiing. x'

So scared now. Hate this feeling in the pit of my stomach. Mum's making me go to step class tonight but I really don't want to go to the gym. I hate it so much

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*pink_sapphires*

So worried Gav's going to be mad with me. Sent him a long message on Facebook and he replied saying

'Liz, I will reply when I have spare time. It's 2.30am here and I'm getting up at 7am to go skiing! Please send photos to disco address. Thanks babe. xx'

For some reason, I'm scared he's going to be stern with me because of the way he said my name with no hello or anything. I've just replied saying 'ok, i'll try not to worry that I'm going to get a stern reply later. I can probably guess what you're going to say but please don't be too mean to me :frown:

Will send photos in a bit. Hope you enjoy skiing. x'

So scared now. Hate this feeling in the pit of my stomach. Mum's making me go to step class tonight but I really don't want to go to the gym. I hate it so much

I think you're reading too much into it. Do you have anything you could distract yourself with today?

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Pocket Calculator

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vapid slut magician

what happened?Probably cocked up a potential relationship. Before I'd even spoken to the girl! And this was one who was apparently interested in me before I even knew of her. Might have mentioned her in here before. Made the mistake of telling someone I fancied her, and after a long chain of events I ended up really pissed off and miserable. God, I'm so useless these days. Shame, it was a good day until then. Had some AMAZING blackcurrant shisha with some old mates in town.

So you've applied for help through the university, right? I've never actually tried to get help of any kind yet. I've only been like this for about 18 months though. I can't see them sending you to an asylum though, assuming that's what you're scared of. I had a friend put in one before and it wasn't pretty. She gained a stalker there too.

what's the visa for?

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becki08

It's Stephanie's birthday today.

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becki08

It's Stephanie's birthday today.

she'll be partying in heaven don't you worry. she'll be having cake and ice-cream and will be free from pain. xxx

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jonathan122

I think you're reading too much into it. Do you have anything you could distract yourself with today?

Slowly drinking the Archers, tidying my room and paying off my student loan (i love my mum). I probably am reading too much into it, I know, but that's me. I'm an emotional wreck and a complete idiot. Archers is helping numb the pain though.

How are you? How is uni this week?

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*pink_sapphires*

Slowly drinking the Archers, tidying my room and paying off my student loan (i love my mum). I probably am reading too much into it, I know, but that's me. I'm an emotional wreck and a complete idiot. Archers is helping numb the pain though.

How are you? How is uni this week?

Uni is ok. Haven't got any more work due in this week, and I'm going home for the weekend on Friday morning.

Great to hear you've got your student loan paid off. :hugs:

Have you managed to get anything sorted with regards to courses at the college / jobs yet?

Go easy on the Archers. :hugs:

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jonathan122

Uni is ok. Haven't got any more work due in this week, and I'm going home for the weekend on Friday morning.

Great to hear you've got your student loan paid off. :hugs:

Have you managed to get anything sorted with regards to courses at the college / jobs yet?

Go easy on the Archers. :hugs:

Only had 2 shots over 3 hours. I'm ok. Don't worry. Want more though to stop the pain of life.

I've got a place on the marketing course which should have started at the end of Jan but now isn't starting until the end of Feb. Costs £650 though I need to find from somewhere. Mum's paid off my loan for me to stop interest adding up but she wants the money back at some point so I'm technically still in debt, just not having interest added to it.

Need to get a job and find a course for September. Not sure I want to go to uni now. I want the degree, the experience and the friends but I don't think I can handle a) the debt and b) the people. I'm so strange. I might just do it through an employer or something. Not ideal but better than nothing.

Step class tonight at the gym. I enjoy it but I'm rubbish at it. Cried all the way through last week.

Gav's just sent me a message on facebook chat that says 'your message was LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG.' That's all he's said. Great! lol

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*pink_sapphires*

Only had 2 shots over 3 hours. I'm ok. Don't worry. Want more though to stop the pain of life.

I've got a place on the marketing course which should have started at the end of Jan but now isn't starting until the end of Feb. Costs £650 though I need to find from somewhere. Mum's paid off my loan for me to stop interest adding up but she wants the money back at some point so I'm technically still in debt, just not having interest added to it.

Need to get a job and find a course for September. Not sure I want to go to uni now. I want the degree, the experience and the friends but I don't think I can handle a) the debt and b) the people. I'm so strange. I might just do it through an employer or something. Not ideal but better than nothing.

Step class tonight at the gym. I enjoy it but I'm rubbish at it. Cried all the way through last week.

Gav's just sent me a message on facebook chat that says 'your message was LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG.' That's all he's said. Great! lol

Have you thought about the Open University at all?

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jonathan122

Have you thought about the Open University at all?

I have, yes. I wanted to do a course with them but just a level one course to keep me working. I'm doing the marketing thing now though instead. The thing that puts me off the OU is the social side of it. I'd rather go to college at least once a week so I get some social interaction. I don't know what I want to do anymore. Still thinking about the music industry just because music is the only thing that gets me through the day (and you guys of course!) x

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becki08

Thanks Liz :hugs:

Don't suppose you could send me any of your Archers? :P:

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vapid slut magician

Ugh, stupid GP left a voicemail with the college nurse, who rang the chaplain (who I was seeing for tea and to see her cats today) so she mentioned that the nurse was worried about me and sent me to see her. So I've had to explain my craziness and general apathy about life to a pile of people so now they think I'm some charity case who's a danger to myself. Great. That's just want I wanted.

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blackfish

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Feeling like complete and utter c**p today. It's my sisters birthday. I bought her a card, can't even spell her name on it correctly. Spent the day doing "bread and butter" style jobs at work which wasn't to good.

Went out with my family for a meal tonight. Well, in all honesty, it was rather poor. I felt like my presence wasn't wanted... :frown:

It was stressful, and the food... What annoyed me the most though was I had my suitcase with me because I am staying with my parents. Well I said I would meet them at the restuarant. Well, they did meet me there, but had already gone into the restaurant and been shown to a table. Leaving me (arriving about 2 minutes later) standing outside trying to attract their attention like a moron :frown:

I might have to go and start on the chocolate fingers again or at least the lemonade. I feel like I just want to disappear, like I can't get anything right... I hate this :frown:

too all. Hows things...?

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