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Someone please give me some advice. I have already posted a thread regarding my problem but I feel like I haven't explained properly. University has caused my anxiety to resurface, I started in September. I'm on medication as well. I feel I am minorly depressed. My mood keeps cycling and I cant make a decision. It has manifested itself badly, I couldn't cope at uni, have come back home, told about 20 people what I'm going through, chatted to strangers online about it, asked on this forum. I'm panicking everyday. I want a good University experience, I want a good degree, I want a life also where I'm not constantly shaking my legs with anxiety. Out of university, I don't just want a degree, I want an experience but I lived in the future when deciding my university and last minute decided it. Now I'm going to a University close to home, the contact hours are a lot and the course is known as being hard. The workload is not too overwhelming atm but it will be and I want to know that I can cope with it and I want a social life alongside. I need some independence I feel to cope with my anxiety and with self care and to mature as a person. I am considering dropping out and moving elsewhere after taking a gap year. Somewhere slightly further away from home, I get scared about the consequences of my actions and panic so I tell my mum a lot, perhaps too much when I'm breaking down. I don't know if moving universities will change anything but I feel like I need to go elsewhere. Am I being unreasonable? I'm just finding it hard to be myself in a University that is too close to home and a University that my sister wants to go to. She is a lot calmer and driven than myself and would like to do the same course. But I want to be away from my family so I can separate myself from their expectations of me. I would have to stay home for another year, listen to people saying that I dropped out but I don't know if I can keep going there. On one hand, I feel like moving back to accommodation but I am scared that I will come back home again, unable to cope. I know though that I would not like to commute under any circumstances. What should I do??? I am just scared that if I wear clothes my mum doesn't like, she'll find out etc. Even though the majority of the time, I'll be studying. I just want to know that time's not running away and I will be somewhere where I want to be for 3/4 years. I might be being silly but its something that I really want. Dropping out is also a big risk so either way I just feel trapped. The university is great, it is just it's proximity to home that I cannot get over.
From simply having a conversation with you to actually working with you to develop a plan to move forwards, they have a range of support services that will be able to help you.
Please do not suffer alone.