oh hon,
hang in there okay!
to help with the situation maybe don't drink as much for a little while? i am sure you aren't annoying in the slightest but take some time to yourself and treat yourself. no one should feel that drained and stressed so you should talk to your family.
to make friends (they dont even need to be people you like tbh): just saying hi, asking to borrow a pen, i struggle making friends too but once you've done it the struggle is over trust me.
motivational to catch up: make a study timetable, have set times with what you need to do. i would defo recommend thinking about where you are now and where you want to get to because trust me it motivates you so so much.
start emailing your lecturers and telling others you are struggling to keep up so they can lend you stuff because this is your future okay. take this matter into ur hands because at the end of the day it is your life.
dont be sad dont be lonely, pm me if you feel like that okay
this might be a tough pill to swallow but QUIT FEELING SORRY FOR YOUSELF AND CHANGE THINGS
i hope everything works out x