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Seriously, I lost all of my happiness. I really need help because I do not know what is going on! The first ever porn category i watched was gay, because i discovered what masturbation was ( I am a 15 year old boy ). Then I switched to straight for many months and I was like "Whoa how the heck was I addicted to m2m porn?". Then someone called me gay and I believed it. For good. One reason why I believed it was cuz i found the physical morph of men attractive. So I was like this is not happening to me it can't be. I was filled with stress, anxiety and fear. Then I read that gay people are the ones who are sexually attracted to men. What a relief. I knew i would never consider having sex with another man, and i slept happily that night. The day after, I remembered that I was watching gay porn in the past, and started to freak out again. I was like do I want to do this? And I started getting aroused again. Then I discovered about Emotions and relationships with men, and i was like yeah i know I am never going to do this. But again that "What if" hit me again. I lost all my attraction towards girls and I am super scared. I don't want to spend my life like this. I want my attraction back. Did I just turn gay? Please help me 😥.
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(Original post by pastafloris55)
Seriously, I lost all of my happiness. I really need help because I do not know what is going on! The first ever porn category i watched was gay, because i discovered what masturbation was ( I am a 15 year old boy ). Then I switched to straight for many months and I was like "Whoa how the heck was I addicted to m2m porn?". Then someone called me gay and I believed it. For good. One reason why I believed it was cuz i found the physical morph of men attractive. So I was like this is not happening to me it can't be. I was filled with stress, anxiety and fear. Then I read that gay people are the ones who are sexually attracted to men. What a relief. I knew i would never consider having sex with another man, and i slept happily that night. The day after, I remembered that I was watching gay porn in the past, and started to freak out again. I was like do I want to do this? And I started getting aroused again. Then I discovered about Emotions and relationships with men, and i was like yeah i know I am never going to do this. But again that "What if" hit me again. I lost all my attraction towards girls and I am super scared. I don't want to spend my life like this. I want my attraction back. Did I just turn gay? Please help me 😥.
There's nothing wrong with being gay- I'm not sure what your family/cultural/religious stance is on this but there are MILLIONS of people who are gay (myself included). It can be a struggle to accept if you haven't grown up in an environment that is ok with it but please know that lots of people are in this situation. I'd recommend speaking with someone you trust who would be open with it or even just finding some online communities/discussions. Also- you are still very young and figuring yourself out. You may not be gay, you could be bi or your feelings could change. I would say the most damaging thing would be to suppress how you're feeling or feel ashamed/embarrassed
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from what you said, it seems like you are gay but don't panic. there's nothing wrong with it, you're still you, it'll be okay
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Its OK to be confused! You don't have to fully understand what box you fit into, because more often than not these boxes aren't needed and the lines are a lot more blurred than we think.
Just take some deep breaths and, instead of trying to understand your sexuality, just experience it. As long as you stay safe and you don't get hurt/hurt anyone, there's absolutely no problems with who you are and who you love.
Wishing you the best!
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I’m 16, and bi. For 3-4 years I was question whether I was into m2m or m2f. I still to this day think it, and tbf it doesn’t really matter what you are, as long as you are happy and you have supportive parents then it’s fine. Us lads find it harder to know what we are at this age and it’s fine, you’ll realise one day!
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