Im feeling very low over something irrational and not sure how to control it Watch
When he told me I acted like i didnt care much but I feel a bit shaky/like im suffocating/a bit panicky and can’t stand what im feeling. I know I sound weird but I can’t help it. Im telling myself that its probably for the best that he leaves, that I need to go out and form new relationships with people/meet someone. But still the feeling is there. Im not young anymore either. I can’t tell anyone really ive not many friends so I guess just wanted to offload.
I don't think this is irrational - everyone has crushes now and again, some are attainable and some aren't, and you're just upset he's leaving. Try not to upset yourself or read too deeply into this - why don't you ask for his number or email so you can keep in touch from him from time to time if you're worried you're never going to see him again?
Thanks. I dont think I should be feeling as bad as this though as he is only a colleague yet it feels like the end of the world, like ive been crying today (i dont normally) but I had to get the ‘depressed' feelings out and its ridiculous really. Ive no appetite lol. I have his number/whatsapp the thing is he is in a relationship/with a kid so we cant just meet up on our own/he wouldn't do this anyway. We are not even that close to be honest lol any engagement is work related, sometimes we’l have conversations about each others hobbies etc. I think I just feel some sort of strong attachment because he has been very supportive more so than anyone else has with me, ive struggled in the past etc so I see this much support as an unusual thing.
Well, why don't you tell him how you feel? Just because he has a child and a partner doesn't mean he's banned from speaking to anyone of the opposite sex. Just tell him you appreciate everything he's done to support you and that you wish him well for the future, and if he ever wants to meet up to talk about work or anything, that would be cool
I will thank him for all he has done, though im not great with words/articulate. I doubt he will meet up again expecially 1-1 with me. I’l tell him that i might see him around at a sports event (we both like going to) but it probably wont happen.
I realise that im sounding very dramatic but its how i feel.
Im usually quite apathetic about things but its because its him in particular. He said that he definately wont be working here in 2 months so ive got to put up with the next few weeks of working with him. I guess Id rather him just go, if that makes sense.
At the end of the day he has a family and you don't want to be the person who will meddle with that. I think you should cut contact with him so you can heal from it without him and hopefully you will find someone else you are attracted to in the future.