My mum overdosed tonight TW Watch
I woke up to my mum’s boyfriend coming home only about 20 mins later shouting about calling an ambulance. She had overdosed on a lot of pills of Co-Codamol not long before he got home. I didn’t know until he was talking to the paramedics that they had had an argument earlier that day before he went out. My mum has suffered from depression for decades & I feel awful as I didn’t even realise she was feeling so low at the moment too.
The ambulance came late, took around 3 hours to get here but during that time she had puked up a lot including some of the pills. She’s gone to the hospital for a blood test & ECG to make sure she’s okay now.
I feel so guilty that I didn’t check up on her before going to bed. I feel like I should’ve been more aware of what was happening, that I should’ve spent more time with her recently and maybe I would noticed. I don’t know what I’d do without her, she’s my world and I love her so much. I’m not even sure how to properly respond to this, I don’t know what I can do for her now.
I don’t really even know if I expect anyone to reply to this, I just had to get it out.
Your mother needs help, and sadly you're not qualified to provide it. As someone who has felt suicidal in the past I know how difficult my situation was to handle, to the point where my mother couldn't help me and professional help is needed. This is the same situation, but the familial roles are reversed.
The best support your can provide to your mother is pushing her towards getting professional psychological help. Please don't beat yourself up, the only situation in which it would be justified would be if you were her full time live in carer, and you're not.
Wishing you the best.
Take care OP. You'll get through this. If you need to chat, I'm around to talk. I'm really sorry this happened. Suicide and suicide attempts are horrific for those around the person and the one directly suffering. I hope you get some peace soon.