I’m suffering from extreme loneliness and depression now and a big part of my depression is the realisation that no girl gives a **** about me.
I see gorgeous girls on campus all the time with unattractive guys proving looks don’t really matter in a relationship sure a girl would rather be with a hot guy but she will happily settle in a relationship with an ugly guy instead of just being good friends with him. Also at clubs girls making out with unattractive guys and the dreaded one night stands makes me so jealous and sad that other guys get to have these experiences and please these girls, girls at clubs have eyed me up before and some even take my hand to dance but I’m usually too shy to initiate Anything further.
I wish I could pull girls every week since most singles guys do and I’m attractive and girls show a lot of interest in me at clubs. Seeing all the couples on campus and the way the girls look at the guys versus the way girls look at me.
When I’m depressed girls either look nervous or uncomfortable and look away like I’m causing them discomfort for being depressed they do not look sympathetic for feel bad for me. Or they look at me like I’m a crazy person or they look at me like I’ve muttered their entire family. The only explanation I can think of is either girls are all sociopaths and incapable of feeling sympathy or empathy for other people or that my face is coming off as moody and miserable and angry and not sad even though I don’t feel angry I only feel sadness.
I’m attractive and when I’m not depressed a lot of girls I don’t know smile when looking my way but when I’m depressed I don’t get that nor do I get girls feeling bad for me. I just want to know girls care because if I were to meet a girl and we got on great but if we were strangers and she walked past me in the street when I’m fighting back tears and she doesn’t seem bothered at all I wouldn’t want to be with her regardless of how great we got along.
I’ve been depressed before but nowhere near as intense as now I’m literally coming home from uni everyday and spend hours on end crying! I can’t go on like this! I’m so so so depressed and feel girls don’t care! Even when I’m not depressed if I look a girl in the eye passing her on campus she either avoids eye contact when she sees me, or looks at me with contempt!
What’s going on? Is this all in my head? Or girls if you seen a guy depressed would you really hate him and not feel bad for him? Please answer these questions I really don’t think my face is coming off as moody to others I just feel sad but maybe it is? Or maybe girls don’t give a **** about me! Things are so bad now I’m
So depressed and sad I just cry all the time.