I feel so alone .Watch
Well reading what you wrote, I figure that means you are literally worth something to somebody...even if it was the longest post ever to come to the realisation.
Thank you .
Actually, I don’t think so... I still feel so sad and alone but this really helps a lot ngl💕
No matter how many people I talk to ( and I talk to a lot of people ) it’s not enough and I still end up feeling so alone and left out . Sure, some of those people show me a kind side and a caring one , but I still believe that none of those people are honest and probably just do this because they are sweet or trying to get something . I lost trust in people long time ago, through many painful situations I got myself into . One of the very big reason I don’t trust people as I did before ( well I actually I still hope I will magically have real friends among the people I talk to but I still know they don’t give any **** about me whatsoever even if they pretend ) so one of the incidents was when I trusted a person so much with my problems and considered them my helping hand, suddenly ignored me like I didn’t even existed ! They ghosted me in real life. They didn’t even give me a second to say hello they just looked straight into my eyes and asked “ what’s your name “ and walked and ran away !!!.... I mean, after that I saw everyone as a trash and I still think , no matter how bad this thought sounds that people only are good for money and for their advantage. Like if I wasn’t in this family I am in , knowing my parents very well, they would trash talk about me like they bully me in real life but this time actually don’t give a **** because, I am not their daughter . Maybe they only care because of their “ reputation “ . And although I still think they love me , I just think it’s not true love because I always see myself being hated if I was some other girl like my mom talks about . Heck they bully me being their daughter . I am the type of person that loves to socialize, idk if I don’t socialize, it’s kind of very boring . I can survive alone and I enjoy being alone doing my activities, but no matter how much I remind myself that people are trash and none of the people around me are real people who genuinely care about my existence, I still end up talking and joking around . I can’t seem to stop because I feel so so sad if I don’t , around people . But the thought that I see everyone around me as absolutely money hungry and only really care about materialistic stuff, I feel like I don’t want any humans around me . I don’t trust anyone , but yet I do and I get disappointed when I see myself not getting anywhere with anyone . I be sitting with bunch of people who call me lovely names and act like I am their “ friend “ yet not friendly enough to be shared one of their dozen secrets they share and laugh at without me knowing . And when I ask what’s up , everyone and literally ( everyone else in my life ) either sees me as childish and immature or doesn’t trust me enough to tell me anything . They always dismiss the topic . I am told I give vibes of a trustful person And and I seem “ innocent “ but oh well, I think not and I am a joke . And really this is pathetic, if you don’t trust me enough why bother to talk to me when I clearly try to cut you out? That’s just stupid . But yet again, I still feel lonely and de attachment from everyone . I feel so left out, I just feel like I am worth nothing to nobody . I am always used to being ignored , left out , bullied and trusting the wrong people then get hurt when they don’t actually care about me .