I want it to end.

I'm sick and tired of feeling the way I do. I have a horrible sinking pain in my stomach. I feel like throwing myself off the top of a building. You never know until you have been there. You cannot stay, "snap out of it", when you know what it's like. I feel like a fake. I'm on my third antidepressant; may have to supplement my current medication with something else. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm waiting to see people but the sinking agony inside my stomach, the anxiety... it almost kills me. My mind is so ****ed up :frown:

. God I hate this :frown:

.

Reply 1

lodzinski

14

samaritans. seriously.

Reply 2

Jabbamuffin

1

Go to sleep? That's what I do when nothing can make me feel better.

Reply 3

rosiedopez

Sing and dance. Put on really good pop songs and sing around the room! Makes you feel amazinng

tell a friend :hugs:

Saffie

tell a friend :hugs:

This. If not, then by all means, tell us. That's what this forum is here for. Let it all out, and don't do anything you'd regret - just remember the world is full of hope, you just need to look in the right places. :smile:

Reply 6

Anonymous #2

talk to your gp. Your antidepressants clearly arent suited to you. Im sorry to hear how you feel and I hope it gets better. All i can say is that I truly think you should give it a chance, my best friend attempted suicide and lived before I knew her. Her problems aren't over but now a year and a half later she is doing really well and found support.

Sleep.

see your gp about the meds, its often a case of trial and error to see what works for you.

talk to anyone you can about how you feel, be it a counselor, Samaritans, a friend, even on here or another forum.

i never believed people when they said this; but you won't feel like this forever. things change and things get better. sometimes you just need to keep pushing through and believing in a better future.

Without hope and support the day is longer, harder and bleaker.

Reply 9

MakingMoves

I had a phase like that when I was about your age. Endure it for now. Eventually it will go away.

But anyways. Funny thing is I saw a episode of Charlie Brown and Snoopy today which is totally relevant to your situation.

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Patricia "Peppermint Patty" Reichardt: [to an unhappy Charlie Brown] Listen, you can't let yourself get into a mood like this. I know you miss Snoopy. I miss him, too. But if you let yourself get into a mood, no one will want to be around you. No one likes a moody person, Chuck. Take it from me: I learned a long time ago that if you go around in a mood feeling sorry for yourself, you do it alone. And I mean *alone*, Chuck.

Good luck chuck. :smile:

Reply 10

Anonymous,

Hey, antidepressants I think take time to work and Ive heard you can feel worse before you begin to feel better, so I would see part of this as just a temporary state..hold on in there! If nothing changes or you get worse go back to the gp. Easier said than done though I know.

Reply 11

Anonymous #3

I was there and I got better. It took time and effort but trust me you wont always feel this way. Good Luck.

Reply 12

Origami Bullets

19

Have you recently changed your antidepressant? I know that they can take a while to kick in.

Otherwise, ring the Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90 or email them at [email protected]

Reply 13

MakingMoves

Why you even taking antidepressants for? You can't rely on them forever to solve your problem of depression.

Now is a time better than any to think whats going wrong in your life and try to solve it. Better in the long run. If you need any support or anything I'd back you up. :smile:

Reply 14

Electric_Dreams

9

It really troubles me that, within 2 hours so little people have responded to this.

OP, is there no-one close you can talk to? There must be someone you can, a friend or family member, or even a professional? especially if you feel this bad.
Secondly, how long have you been on these anti-depressents? Sometimes they take a while to kick in, and it's often rare the first or even second batch will work. These may not be right for you, but that does not mean you sure throw in the towel.
Whatever stage the medicine is at, go and see a doctor tomorrow! You are a danger to yourself and need some more help. ;console;
What has triggered this? (not the depression, just this extreme point of it) Perhaps, if there is a clear reason, there is a way of resolving the issue? I'd be happy to give advice on and on, but it's hard to help without you here in front of me, so make sure you see someone to explain how you are feeling.

Please, just don't do anything in this state.
There is no way to snap out of depression, but people can and do get out of it. You were happy once, and can be again. I know you may find it stupid for me to say: you have so much to live for, but I'm sure you do. We all have potential, and tomorrow is a new day, it may seem bleak for now, but it can and will get better if you fight for it?

On the fake issue I'm afraid I don't understand if that's related to the drugs or your general personality :confused:

can you make that clearer?

Just please don't do it, and talk to someone. Believe me, it is heartbreaking for someone you love to commit, or attempt to commit suicide. Things will get better, given time.
:hugs:

Reply 15

Vetinari

8

Hey OP!

Very sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. The above advice is all pretty sound -talking to people about what's going on with you and the problems at the heart of it all is always a good plan.

If you are in such a bad position that you're considering suicide then maybe you ought to really focus on some of the things you'd like to accomplish in life. Places to go, things to see, foods to eat. The world has lots of amazing stuff in it, it'd be a shame to miss out! Maybe making a list of places you'd like to visit (or anything like that) might help take your mind off of your problems and focus you on what you need to lock on to push through all of this. List-making is the perfect remedy for everything. :smile:

I'm sure you're strong enough to get through it, so concentrate on the good, talk to the samaritans (or a friend or family member!) and give things another go. :smile:

Reply 16

chairboy1

7

find something you enjoy and do it, music, sport, chatting anthing that you like doing

basically, sort out your life

Reply 17

mdhey89

Anonymous

I'm sick and tired of feeling the way I do. I have a horrible sinking pain in my stomach. I feel like throwing myself off the top of a building. You never know until you have been there. You cannot stay, "snap out of it", when you know what it's like. I feel like a fake. I'm on my third antidepressant; may have to supplement my current medication with something else. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm waiting to see people but the sinking agony inside my stomach, the anxiety... it almost kills me. My mind is so ****ed up :frown:

. God I hate this :frown:

.

Is there really no-one you can talk to in the meantime? You need to address why you're feeling the way you do ASAP. I know there's no quickfix, but by speaking to people like the Samaritans surely it will help address the way you're feeling.

Reply 18

Sabertooth

20

MakingMoves

Why you even taking antidepressants for? You can't rely on them forever to solve your problem of depression.

What a great idea to tell someone :rolleyes:

OP I've been through about 11 different antidepressants, it's crap that they're all different for everyone, and that you have to keep trying until you find the right one. I can sympathise how you feel, like crap right? No future, no present even, nothing, just self loathing, seemingly endless black hole, huge anxiety, all of that ****, but there is some hope, you're waiting to see people and that's great hopefully they can offer you counselling or CBT or any of them other things that can help alongside pills.

Ignore all these idiots saying stop the pills, just exercise and you'll be fine, pull yourself together, all that kind of *******s; they mostly don't have a ****ing clue, serious depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, you wouldn't tell a diabetic to pull themselves together over a chemical imbalance in their body, wouldn't say go exercise and you'll feel better. You're getting help and that's great, you've done the really hard bit now you just need to hang on until the pills finally work (yeah it can take ages and that sucks believe me) and see what else they can offer you to feel better because it might take a while but one day you will feel better and it's worth hanging on for that.

Reply 19

Lithium

13

Anonymous

I'm sick and tired of feeling the way I do. I have a horrible sinking pain in my stomach. I feel like throwing myself off the top of a building. You never know until you have been there. You cannot stay, "snap out of it", when you know what it's like. I feel like a fake. I'm on my third antidepressant; may have to supplement my current medication with something else. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm waiting to see people but the sinking agony inside my stomach, the anxiety... it almost kills me. My mind is so ****ed up :frown:

. God I hate this :frown:

.

OP, I am sorry to hear you're feeling this way. I wont pretend to know how you feel, but I can understand that you are going through a hard time right now.

Do you know why you're feeling this way? Have any idea what might be causing it?

I want it to end.

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