I have just been feeling worried about my future. I just sometimes cant sleep because i worry about stuff. I just am 18 years old dont drive yet, failed my theory test twice, got no job, no girlfriend, still at college, no gcses, no a levels and I just dont know anything Im good at. I dont like college im on a course to help me get me a job but I dont know its doing I just feel like its getting me anywhere and the people who have done to same course as me have just ended up doing low end job like mcdonalds, cleaner etc. I just wouldnt be able to that. I just feel like its a chore getting up and going because I dont enjoy it and i just come home stressed. I hate getting the bus home its so depressing seeing cars driving passed and thinking other people can drive but im a bus ****** standing there waiting for the bus. Its embarrassing. I dont have a job at the moment because I have savings and also I just want to pass my driving test first , i dont want to get the bus to work and from.
My main worry is that I wont be able to drive because I failed the theory twice and I just need to be able to do it. I hate public transport so much. If I actually couldnt drive I dont know what I would do it would really put me down so much just using public transport to get to work back it just so depressing . Im basically screwed if I dont get my driving licence. Its embarassing not to drive espeicially for me and im going to feel more embarrassed as I get older. Ive had lessons in a manual car but was struggling and I changed instructors but that didnt go well either. Im learning in automatic now which is going well, I have areas for improvement but my instructor is going to do an intensive course before my pratical test. I just need to pass my theory though but im worried about it. I just like cars so much and just not being able to drive would hurt so much. I dont mind about it being automatic because most cars are avalible in it so i just need to pass this. I watch videos on cars everyday for hours I just wouldnt be able to take not being able to drive. Its just if couldnt drive I wouldnt be motivated to get a job because I dont drive so ill feel like a failiure. I really need to get this driving licence.
Does anyone have any advice?
Is anyone in a similar position?