WTF to do next

Before the corona outbreak i was in a bad position anyway, graduated half a year ago, severely depressed, no passions anymore or real job prospects, don't want to work in the field i graduated (architecture). No responses to job applications, i did just a couple of very short and crappy gigs since graduation. All the ones i apply to fill me with dread, i can't seem to suck it up and just get something to get by. I live with my bf who owns the place so no rent needed, but the relationship is on the rocks and i've tried to have a backup plan by getting a job in case i have to move out. but the relationship has knocked my confidence to the ground where i feel embarrassed about any job i get and feel ashamed of anything i apply to because of his judgements of me, while he's successful in his job and all his friends are too. I like the look of an MA but worry about my mental health not being up to the work and focus, especially with my bf 's opinions/view of me interfering with everything i do. But i can't leave as i have nowhere to go now. but time is slipping away its nearly a year since i graduated and feel so ashamed that i've gone down a black hole instead of achieving anything.

The self-isolation has been really great in a way, as I came home at the start of it to stay with a member of family, break from relationship and can finally live in my own skin a bit. But can't live with parents because A i would feel ashamed and B they live in a village in a remote place so there were no prospects for me anyway.

Any advice on how to decide on the next step when everything feels like its going to fail?

If you only graduated a year ago your uni should still be able to help and advise. I hope. Mine would. Contact any old tutors you were friendly with and ask for advice. Your old uni should still be available for careers advice, interviews, cvs etc for at least three years after you graduate.

Good luck. I can send you links to online resources if it would help?