Depression etcc

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Ever since primary school i was bullied constantly, carrying on into high school up until leaving on and off. everything at college is so far good and none of the **** i recieved at high school has carried over to here.. but this has left me with a severe lack of trust, low self esteem, and quite frankly i'm actually scared to iniate conversation with anyone.. just speaking when spoken too.

now its the summer holidays i spend my days just sitting in my room thinking if i would actually have a chance of meeting new ppl, going out w/ "friends" etcc which of course adds to my depression of probaly knowing it'll never happen. which of course leads brings me to the question of should i even continue with my life anymore?

i dont know what to do anymore, ending it seems the most resonable solution and well.. i dont know..

Reply 1

Anonymous #2

Of course you should continue with your life! I was diagnosed as being a sufferer of clinical depression a few years back - I opted against the medication route.

The one way I can get through my depression is by talking to people about what I feel. Some people find it easy to talk to their best friend, others their parents or teachers. For me it is my girlfriend.

You need to take you mind off things and work towards building up your self esteem and confidence again. The st johns ambulance are really good to join if there is one near you, not only to lean first aid, but to socialise with new people. Go to events with them and get talking to members of public as this will give your confidence a huge boost!

If you ever feel worried and want to talk to someone about how you feel etc, there is always Childline or the Samaratans. You could also see your GP and they are really good with this sort of thing (arranging counsellers if you want etc - and won't tell your parents!)

Take care

Reply 2

xXMessedUpXx

It doesn't mean it will never happen. I was bullied throughout school and this left me with severe depression and a backlog of self harm. When i got to uni i did find it hard to talk to people, and my depression worsened to the point of pretty much alcoholism, but it got better. Sitting in your room, you won't have the chances to meet new people. When you go back to college try your hardest to get out there and meet people. I know when you have low self esteem its the hardest thing to do, but you need to help yourself gain more confidence.

As i was saying to my friend last night, if you go out there with the opion and attitude that no-one wants to know you or talk to you, then chances are you're going to be giving off that impression, and people probably will avoid you as they think you'd rather be left alone. But if you can make yourself really believe that you do want to meet people then you may find your demenour changing and find that people see you are more approachable. As far as uni goes it took me till my 3rd year to have realy formed any friendships with my classmates, but it did happen.

Even if you feel liek life is not worth living, i guarentee one day something good will happen, and you'll look back and be so glad you didn't give in. if my suicide attempts had been successful, i would never had got to see my siblings grow up, i'd never have met the love of my life and i'd never had expeirienced all the awesome things that have happened to me in the last few years. I still have depression, but i can feel life is going to get better. And i hope it will for you too.