I’m scared to grow up

I’m turning 18 pretty soon and I’m scared I feel like before I was excited and stuff but I’m lowkey scared and I feel like a loser for saying this, I’ll be leaving the house for uni soon (hopefully), be able to drink (I know I don’t have to but I used to look forward to it but now I’m just scared) , have a boyfriend (hopefully) and overall just be a grown up. I acc sound like a loser but I’m scared, I honk I’m just overthinking this but I’m scared, I don’t know I think it’s this whole coronavirus situation like I have this feeling I have no control over my future esp since alevels got cancelled and my grades r literally up in the air so I have no clue what’s going to happen in regards to my future. Urghshhh im just nervous and I sound like a complete loser