Why do I crave my ex boyfriend who emotionally abused me?Watch
Or you just miss the sex?
Yh true women like alpha males but when they finally get a alpha male ***** and moan that the geeza is too controlling like make your mind up - isn't it what they wanted ?
very few can be an alpha so it makes sense why OP misses them
Do have a look into the effects of narcissistic abuse- cravings for an abuser are particularly common where the ex is a narcissist. It sounds as though this may be your situation. In a nutshell; a narcissist's mistreatment fills an emotional void that exists in their partner, so when this abuse is gone, they long for their ex back to fill that void. The longing you're feeling now might be a result of a behaviour known as the idealisation-devaluation-discard cycle. A useful couple of articles on this: https://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/ide...issism-0325154 and https://neuroinstincts.com/neuroscie...honda-freeman/ . You're missing the emotional high that your ex provided at the beginning of your relationship to hook you in. It's certainly akin to withdrawing from a drug- the feelings are very powerful.
Above all, do not go back to him, under any circumstances. Take time to yourself to heal the trauma from the abuse, or you will likely find yourself in similar relationships throughout your lifetime. Don't underestimate the scars of emotional abuse- perhaps when lockdown restrictions are lifted, you could find yourself a therapist.
do you feel the need to 'win' his approval? or maybe if you change him you've accomplished something as a person. there's heaps of reasons people stay in abusive relationships.
"they just want a chad to abuse them" grow up