Changing my name by deed pollWatch
My mum hasn't been a mum so I don't think I should continue life under a name that she chose for me. Over the years she's put me over a ton of emotional abuse and recently it's just got so bad that I've come to the conclusion of changing my name will fully disconnect me from her.
However, I am wondering what the rest of the family will say, I pretty much know that they will probably say I am either A. attention seeking or B. taking it too far, to which I am not I am just wanting a fresh start, something that doesn't consist of being abused continuously.
I have two friends in life where for a while it would feel weird them calling me a different name and visa versa, but besides that I don't have any friends and this would be a fresh new start for me. I am in general sick of having the name I have, I am sick of the life I have lead so far and want something new.
*shrug* I doubt a different name is really the lasting answer, but if you're making a 'Fresh Start' then go ahead, who cares what any of them think if you won't see them again?
It's more I want to go by something that I have named myself and not a name from someone that's given me a seriously ****ty life. Unfortunately she will always be in my life (until the alcohol eventually kills her, the sooner the better I say.) she's basically a 40+ year old boomer that still lives at her mums house (my nans house) so until I move out I will pretty much have to see her presence every single day.
I think it is because when she tells her alcohol bum friends that she has three sons, when she mentions my name as 'Ross' technically she will be lying as 'Ross' won't exist anymore. I just wish there was a way that you could change who your mum and dad is on paper because both of them would be gone 100%.
I have two friends in life where for a while it would feel weird them calling me a different name and visa versa, but besides that I don't have any friends and this would be a fresh new start for me.