Mental health during the lockdown

My mental health was so fine up until a week ago. I’m not too bad at the moment but a few days ago I was crying my eyes out, staying in my bedroom the whole day not talking to anyone in my family. I started self-harming again worse than I’ve ever done before and I overdosed on my anti-depressants aswell which made me feel awful obviously. I’m trying to avoid being alone as much as I can because my thoughts are so toxic I can’t bear them. Hope you’re okay though

Mine's gotten worse. I tried to speak to my psychiatrist about it, but she didn't get it lmao.

Don't think this is uncommon tbh.

Mine got worse in the early days but as time has gone on it has improved as I accept the position I find myself in. That is not to say I don't have bad days, but they are less frequent maybe twice a week.

Let’s communicate our problems if possible. Might make us all feel a little better about ourselves. And we are all here if you ever feel like talking to anyone 💕

I'm just really angry... Alot. Which is problem a defense mechanism for being sad. I'm generally optimistic but i feel trapped in this country tbh, because I trusted it after studying here for three years.... I also feel like I've lost my admiration for what i envisioned in my fantasy the UK to stand for. Should have just rushed back to Germany when I had the chance, but i wanted to finish exams here...and pick up my degree certificate rather than have it mailed, since i have a tight window for starting my master's in the Netherlands and they need the document and i want my degree... At least i can snap a pic of that for instagram, since celebrations aren't in order. Reading Italy going back to near normal next week and this whole late July thing. It's far to slow and bobbled...everyone is just enjoying their summer.... To an extent... And we're just what? Unlimited excercise.

Tell me about it 🙊 Literally everyone is going through the same thing here. Let’s hope everything gets better and bw get to go out again with the people we love.

I'm just really angry... Alot. Which is problem a defense mechanism for being sad. I'm generally optimistic but i feel trapped in this country tbh, because I trusted it after studying here for three years.... I also feel like I've lost my admiration for what i envisioned in my fantasy the UK to stand for. Should have just rushed back to Germany when I had the chance, but i wanted to finish exams here...and pick up my degree certificate rather than have it mailed, since i have a tight window for starting my master's in the Netherlands and they need the document and i want my degree... At least i can snap a pic of that for instagram, since celebrations aren't in order. Reading Italy going back to near normal next week and this whole late July thing. It's far to slow and bobbled...everyone is just enjoying their summer.... To an extent... And we're just what? Unlimited excercise.

I’ve just started getting close to an old friend and I want to tell him everything about my depression but I’m just so scared of rejection and of being judged. I feel like if I had someone to talk to it’d be a huge weight of my shoulders. I tried to talk to my best friend about it once but she didn’t want to know:/

We won’t judge you. You can talk to any of us whenever you want 💛

Is Germany your home and where your family is? You must wish you were back home. That’s sad. (Sorry if I’m wrong)

Yeah. I mean, idk when that'll happen for me, I am shielding, so who knows. I just feel more trapped now. But hopefully things will change soon, I just very much doubt it for people in my situation, which is worsening my headspace.

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I wouldn’t know anything about how that feels like but honestly, I think it would help if you would constantly talk with your friends and family or whoever you are close to. I mean that’s what I have been doing till now. Whenever I feel a little low or even a slightest of madness takes over, I simply call my bestfriend and would talk to her nonstop and that gets me back on the track. I think this will work for you too

No luckily my mum i cared for died, she was very vulnerable on dialysis etc a few years ago (this would have been mental her for her, and then no funeral etc), and my dad lives in America so he's fine. But gym's are reopening and I know it sounds futile but i just really love going to the gym to the point if i can't i no longer feel whole. I know it seems retarded. It's not about the way it makes me look, it's the intrinsic happiness i get from it. And i feel it's inevitable the virus is gonna hit back harder in the fall, so why not give us our reprieve during June to August....it's just not logical.