Got a bit of a dilemma going on at the moment. My dad is at high risk of severe symptoms of Coronavirus due to his old age & medical conditions. Since the pandemic broke out in the UK in March, I told my friends that I feared for his safety and wanted to limit contact with them. They respected this at the time (the country was soon put on lockdown so there wasn’t much of a choice). But now that restrictions have been eased, they’ve been asking me to meet up with them.
I’ve already told them my dad won’t allow it, but they’ve asked again. The truth is that my dad probably would allow it if I promised to stay 2 feet away from them; I’m just worried about accidentally contracting the virus and infecting him. I’d rather limit contact with my friends until the infection rate has significantly dropped than risk loosing my dad. I’ve already lost my mother.
I’m aware I might sound dramatic and stupid but I’m really just not ready to meet up with my friends. Especially considering that they’ve both broken the rules of lockdown and have been in contact with other people who may potentially have the virus. The truth is, I genuinely don’t know when I’ll be ready to meet up with them. I’m so worried about my dad and have gotten so used to staying indoors that I feel like I’ll never be able to break this habit. Another reason I don’t wanna start leaving the house just yet is because I’ve grown very insecure about my appearance. I can feel my friends getting frustrated with me and I suspect it’s only going to get worse as time goes on. I can’t hide in the house forever, but I kind of want to. I don’t know what I can do. Does anyone else relate? Or is everyone jumping at the opportunity to meet loved ones and I’m just a weirdo?