Anyone else just tired?Watch
Trigger warning - mention of a previous suicide attempt
I'm really sorry you're going through this. I completely understand your frustration, and it's really good that you've gotten it all out of your system here. I hope you feel a little bit better for just having this vent. I'm not sure if I can offer any helpful advice, but I will say one thing. This is just a bump in the road that is your life. You have decades ahead of you, and it won't all be like this. Jobs will become available and you will get one, you'll meet other guys who will be head over heels for you, and you will get the career that you want. Eventually. Life doesn't have to have a strict timeline. You aren't falling behind in life because everyone does things differently, so you're perfectly fine. It sounds a bit cringey, but when I feel how you do I tell myself "this too shall pass". Because it will. It's only a short chapter of your life which kinda sucks right now, but this chapter will end and a new, better, happier chapter will begin. The sucky part is that we don't know when that good chapter will begin, but we just sort of have to power through until we get to it. You can do it. The world right now really sucks and nothing is going to plan for anyone, so you definitely aren't alone. Try to keep your chin up and remember that this will pass.