FYI this is more of a rant than anything.
I'm in Year 12 atm, never had huge ambitions. My mother has consistently encouraged me to go into medicine but the high stress and long hours seemed rough. I don't know what I want, especially since this pandemic kicked in I can't get excited about any particular career, since work is called 'work' and not 'fun' for a reason. I do Chem,Bio,Phys,Maths. All of them are boring to me. Biology the least so, Maths and Physics the most. So at least I know what I don't enjoy. Even then it's not like i'm super interested in Biology. Had I reset the clock I would've chose more art related stuff. I like computers but I hate programming since my abusive dad was a software engineer. Ugh. I'd rather not take a gap year since I don't want to waste a year being hounded by my step-dad to get a job.
Honestly I don't know what I want. I'm a mental mess. Literally moved to a new area about a week before schools shut down, so I know absolutely no-one here. True isolation, past friends don't even contact me lol.
I'm tired. I've revised practically all of next year's biology and chemistry. I can't be bothered with Physics and Maths, too many numbers. I'm autistic so I can't even function socially. It's depressing to think i'll be stuck in a boring job as an awkward outcast.
What is the solution here? I've tried searching online but I can't brainstorm jobs I want when I don't even know what I want. Send help. ~Chris.