I don't know what to do with myself during the day besides cooking, cleaning and getting the groceries. I seem to spend a lot of time sitting and just listening to music. I feel like life is passing by and I am not doing anything. At night I become aware of my mortality and it scares me since I have no influence over that aspect of my life. I am scared of life passing by and I will be old and still miserable and my life being wasted.
I am currently waiting for therapy meanwhile I don't know what to do and how to cope.