How can I get rid of my fearWatch
For reference I'm a 15 year old girl
Basically, I have a fear of being kidnapped. I know the tiny chances of it happening in the daytime - especially where I live but no matter how much I tell myself this it dosent make me feel better. It's gotten a bit better since I've started to force myself to walk around my village and stuff more - you heard that right, I'm terrified to walk around parts of my village by myself in broad daylight with people around and a very, very low crime rate. I've never experienced or been a victim of a kidnapping or attempted kidnapping, I haven't been triggered by anything I've seen on TV or read etc. I've been like this for ages. I can't go out without being on edge all the time and if someone leaves me alone in the car or at a table in a cafe while they go shopping or go to the toilet I start to breakdown with anxiety and panic. Walking around the streets is a constant anxiety fest where I keep looking around checking to see if anyones around and walking as fast as I can to get home faster. Honestly people my age walk around alone at 10pm and later like its no big deal while I'm scared of walking anywhere alone in the middle of the day. I don't think I can go to conventional therapy - it would take too long to explain but I don't think its an option. I just want to feel normal, its gotten better as I get older (maybe because I feel safer because I'm 15 rather than say, 13) but I hate feeling like this. Anxiety meds aren't an option either due to other long story reasons and I think I'd rather get to the route cause. When I'm walking with my friends I feel ok but I'm still jumpy and on edge. When I'm with adult members of my family I'm perfectly fine. I half want to just get it out because my parents don't understand properly how I feel and I half wanted to ask advice to see if anyone has any advice on how to feel better or anything.