Self conscious from past relationship

Ever since I broke up with my ex I’ve been really self conscious about the way I look. I remember once I told my ex I wasn’t feeling beautiful and he said ‘put some more makeup then’ and was constantly bringing up the idea of me dying my hair blonde in an ombré style when I didn’t really want it done. His type was a Kylie Jenner look and someone who had a very hyper heterosexual look. Ever since then every time I go on social media I always feel really self conscious every time I look at pictures of celebrities of girls I always feel like I need to look a certain way or fit in. His type was white girls and I’m not white and felt like I wasn’t good enough and he didn’t do much to reassure me. Before I met him I had really high self esteem and believed I was a worthy person but ever since I was with him I look at pictures and see other girls and feel like I’ll never be good enough for a man because I’ll never be what he’s looking for because I don’t look that way. I’m a beautiful girl, I know this. But the problem is that I don’t have plastic surgery, I don’t wear a lot of makeup and I have natural hair. Ever since I’ve been with him he’s honestly made me feel so bad about the way I look. I can’t leave the house without wearing a whole baked face of makeup. I’ve become so insecure and my friends have seen this drastic change. I used to love leaving the house and now I don’t leave at all. I feel like I’m disgusting to look at sometimes. How can I gain my confidence back? I want to be the girl I was before I met him

Ever since I broke up with my ex I’ve been really self conscious about the way I look. I remember once I told my ex I wasn’t feeling beautiful and he said ‘put some more makeup then’ and was constantly bringing up the idea of me dying my hair blonde in an ombré style when I didn’t really want it done. His type was a Kylie Jenner look and someone who had a very hyper heterosexual look. Ever since then every time I go on social media I always feel really self conscious every time I look at pictures of celebrities of girls I always feel like I need to look a certain way or fit in. His type was white girls and I’m not white and felt like I wasn’t good enough and he didn’t do much to reassure me. Before I met him I had really high self esteem and believed I was a worthy person but ever since I was with him I look at pictures and see other girls and feel like I’ll never be good enough for a man because I’ll never be what he’s looking for because I don’t look that way. I’m a beautiful girl, I know this. But the problem is that I don’t have plastic surgery, I don’t wear a lot of makeup and I have natural hair. Ever since I’ve been with him he’s honestly made me feel so bad about the way I look. I can’t leave the house without wearing a whole baked face of makeup. I’ve become so insecure and my friends have seen this drastic change. I used to love leaving the house and now I don’t leave at all. I feel like I’m disgusting to look at sometimes. How can I gain my confidence back? I want to be the girl I was before I met him

I’m so sorry that you’ve been through that. Although we’ve never met each other, I know that you’re beautiful. We all are beautiful in our own way.

He wasn’t meant for you girl. He clearly wanted you to fit with his ideal type. But don’t change. You are you. You’re not Kylie Jenner. If he wants someone like Kylie Jenner then, why don’t he date the original one, right? Lol. But too bad, he can’t have her🤪

The right one will love you for who you are.
The right one will make you feel loved. You just haven’t met him. Delete his number and unfollow him in all social media. Show him that you CAN LIVE WITHOUT HIM. you don’t need him. even myself don’t want someone like him too. He needs to learn how to love right.

You’re beautiful girl. Always say that to yourself. Work out, do skin care routine, and eat healthy. Start being productive and always distract yourself by doing things you love. You’re probably heart broken, but don’t do anything that’ll harm urself. You’re independent, I know you are. You will be okay, maybe not for now. But you will, it just takes time. Get rid off things that reminds you of him. Get up girl, it’s time to shine again.