Hi, I was out with my boyfriend as he moved back to uni and I met his mum for the first time. It was going really well and I was drinking vodkas but I thought I was taking it easier than I usually do.
I can't remember getting back to my boyfriends house, and I was sick on his bed and on the sofa at his new uni house. My boyfriend cleaned it up and he got mad at me and wanted my mum to come pick me up but she couldn't as she was on holiday and as it was late there were no trains running. I got quite emotional but stayed until around 6 in the morning when I left in my pyjamas and got a train home.
I feel awful for his housemates who had to deal with me because I didn't want my boyfriend anywhere near me for some reason. I was supposed to be staying for a long weekend and only stayed one night not even with my boyfriend. I suggested to my boyfriend that we should split up and he said he doesn't want to but it doesn't stop me from feeling guilty for the whole situation.
These sorts of situations have happened a couple of times before and I hate the way I am when it goes badly. I don't get why my boyfriend is willing to forgive me when he gets really angry during. Is it worth it anymore if I'm just going to keep messing up? I genuinely didn't realise I was so drunk. I don't know how to stop feeling guilty or how I'm going to face seeing my boyfriend or his housemates in the future.