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I'm sorry to hear about your cousin, you and your family will be in my prayers. Honestly if you feel like everything's getting a bit too much just take a step back and relax. My dms are always open if you need anything. Love you❤️

I'm so sorry to hear about your cousin Please take as much of a break as you need, because your mental health is super important, especially right now.

4/10/2020

an absolute mess.

after almost a month, i am back! this is about to be a real memory test. i’m going to split everything into weeks because so much has happened... i’ll try to keep this short.

week three

so... since the last post, things went downhill a little. i honestly cannot remember what exactly happened in this week but i do know that a lot of mental breakdowns were involved i think we finished up biological molecules in biology, and also the second unit of physics? i have no idea what goes on in physics. we’re on the third unit at the moment, which is kinematics.

i think we also started on chemical bonding in chemistry, or were we already started? lmao i literally do not know.

week four

the fourth week wasn’t too bad, as we had a long weekend (four days!) and so i used those days to catch up on bio and chemistry since i was so so lost. that definitely lifted up my spirits and i was pretty productive! when it comes to me, however, a week of productivity is always followed by three weeks of depression. so, guess what happened the next week! i totally did NOT burn out

week five

fifth week, we finished up chemical bonding (which i’m still trying to understand) and also got started on chapter three on biology, which is enzymes. as usual, i have no idea what we covered. guess who has to catch up

we also started on the fifth chapter of chem, which is states of matter? it’s a weird chapter but we’re still on it. physics was boring as usual, we’re still on kinematics. i seriously want to drop it but it’s only one year, next year i’ll get to redo year 12 and take up psych

my mental health was all over the place, after the productive high of the previous week i just crashed. the number of naps i took... lmao

then i got some really terrible news.

on friday i got the terrible news that one of my cousins passed away. he was everyone’s favourite and was just so selfless and fun to be around my cousins live back in my home country so i hadn’t been able to see him in over four years, but now i’ll never see him again and it’s eating me alive. the news hit the entire family really hard because we all just loved him so much. it’s hit me especially hard since i hadn’t seen him in so long and was truly looking forward to.

he was only 18, his death was extremely sudden (he drowned). please keep his family in your prayers.

so, since friday i’ve been grieving his loss and been having a really hard time. if i don’t update for long periods at a time from now on, just know that i’m dealing with a lot right now

my mental health has been terrible since the second week, so this death really was just the last straw.

love y’all

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I’m sorry to hear about your loss, my prayers are with you and your family take your time and remember to talk to people if you need to, I too have most of my family living in a different country so know exactly what it is like to not see family for ages. Remember this blog is just a motivational/sharing your year kind of thing, real life is much more important than this, so take as much time away as you need.

My PMs are always open if you ever need to talk about anything ❤️

thinking of you right now it must be so tough

Oh no! Your family is in all of our prayers. I hope you dont feel a pressure to post a lot or update all the time, especially with whats going on. Its honestly more impressive to me to keep a blog going all year but only update every few weeks, than to update every single day but the blog doesnt make it to the end of the year lol. I hope things start to feel better soon. It sounds like you are really trying your best to keep up with things, and very aware if something needs to be caught up on. Seeing as you care so much, I'm sure you will do just fine in the end! Good luck girlie! <3

thank you so much ly!

hey guys, wanted to let y’all know that i’ll be taking a long ass break from tsr due to my mental health being non-existent.

this place is overwhelming now, seeing everyone do so well and then seeing how i’m getting overwhelmed by the smallest little things is incredibly difficult and triggering. i might discontinue this blog if things don’t get better, please bear with me

hey guys, wanted to let y’all know that i’ll be taking a long ass break from tsr due to my mental health being non-existent.

this place is overwhelming now, seeing everyone do so well and then seeing how i’m getting overwhelmed by the smallest little things is incredibly difficult and triggering. i might discontinue this blog if things don’t get better, please bear with me

since the last post i’ve lost another three very close family members... please spend time with your loved ones, tomorrow isn’t promised.

inna lillah wa inna ilayhi jajiuun ❤️

i might close this down, just bear with me. and to all those who’ve lost loved ones during this pandemic, know that i’m here for y’all and my pms are always open.

if you’re a muslim, please pray for my family and extended family xx

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since the last post i’ve lost another three very close family members... please spend time with your loved ones, tomorrow isn’t promised.

inna lillah wa inna ilayhi jajiuun ❤️

i might close this down, just bear with me. and to all those who’ve lost loved ones during this pandemic, know that i’m here for y’all and my pms are always open.

if you’re a muslim, please pray for my family and extended family xx

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since the last post i’ve lost another three very close family members... please spend time with your loved ones, tomorrow isn’t promised.

inna lillah wa inna ilayhi jajiuun ❤️

i might close this down, just bear with me. and to all those who’ve lost loved ones during this pandemic, know that i’m here for y’all and my pms are always open.

if you’re a muslim, please pray for my family and extended family xx

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Oh my word, I hope you're doing as well as you can be. I am so glad to hear you are doing better now, and I am so sorry for your losses.

Well done on your chemistry grade so far! I hope biology starts getting better too.

Happy birthday!