You’re definitely not alone, im going through the exact same thing. It’s pretty ****ing miserable honestly but im trying to lower my expectations and manage as best as i can in my situation. We’ve been dealt a **** hand, but we can try and help ourselves as much as possible.
Hang in there man, call up your friends and family from when you need to bc thats definitely helped me. If i make new friends, that’s great, and if i don’t then so be it. Whatever happens happens x