I can't sleep because I'm in so much pain it is making me feel sick probably caused by an endorphin release.
Sleep was the one thing I had where I could escape my deteriorating mental and physical health, now that small mercy has been taken from me. I have no idea what I have done to my shoulder to elicit this kind of response. My body hates me and I hate it.
I don't really know why I am posting this in to void at 5am, I just want to give up but it isn't an option.