Mental Health Support Society XXI

I've been feeling pretty damn good for the past few days. I just don't understand how I can feel so down for months and then one day, it's like a switch flips and I start to feel fantastic. Life just feels so worthwhile again, and I have all this energy and I just want to and finally can do stuff and enjoy it. There is literally nothing I have done to make this happen, yet I still feel like feeling **** was a choice and my fault, even though this quite obviously highlights that it wasn't. Idk, I am really grateful to be feeling more like myself again, but I also hate that this means I have no control

Are the highs "manic"?

Hey y'all btw.

Just feel really down at the moment

What's up

Not sure how to explain it but I’ll explain it as best as I can

So was at work this morning, and there was talk of someone I work with who is currently abroad at the country he’s originally from (have no idea when he’ll be back), and there was something said of wedding planning (was only half listening as I was doing something) so only assume that his family are probably trying to get him married off, but idk if he actually wants to (we’re from two different religions/cultures). Lately I’ve been thinking about my feelings for this person and that I really do like this person and that I miss him quite a lot (never really spoke about my feelings) - last time I saw him was our last shift together before Christmas which was the day Boris announced the tier 4 system which my area went into before lockdown. My manager did ask me if I had spoken to him and I was like oh a few weeks ago, and then my manager was like can you get him to call me (think my manager has tried to call him but had no luck). I know his internet isn’t great where he is but I have messaged him to say to call our manager. But just feel like it’s my fault - my OCD/intrusive thoughts are causing me to think that everything is my fault

I'm really sorry to hear that, , but I can definitely tell you that it's not your fault at all, so you definitely shouldn't think that, this isn't your doing or anything like that

Thank you just hoping I’ve misinterpreted what was said but who knows . Gahhh really hate having OCD & anxiety

Hope you’re ok?

I understand that completely, anxiety is honestly the worst

I'm doing alright - currently stuck in college but aside from that I'm good. My brother and sister are coming down from Scotland at the end of May (hopefully) and they said I can go back up with them for a couple weeks so that's literally the only thing on my mind lol, I'm unbelievably excited

It really is isn’t it

That’s good. What’re you doing at college? That sounds great. Sounds like that’ll be a nice break for you

I'm doing a compsci course to prepare myself for uni (BEng in Software Engineering). It's honestly kinda **** coz my main lecturer is godawful but I'm getting through it; it's only two days a week

Hey y'all btw.