Mental Health Support Society XXI

Feel like pure ****.
So glad iv got 2 more days off to hopefully recover from whatever stomach bug iv got

Hope you feel better soon

I'm watching videos of people having hypomanic episodes and honestly, they all look pretty normal to me If that is what hypomania looks like, I'm pretty sure I have bipolar

I know ypur worried about diagnosis and work but you really need to get assessed imo

I know. I just really, really don't want this diagnosis and to be on meds. But this clearly isn't normal and I'm pretty sure other people are starting to notice.

For me it was when people started noticing that i began thinking something wasnt right, then i had a huge breakdown and was reffered to a psych, and honestly starting new meds was the best decision i made. I *think* im mostly stable now which compared to what i was a year ago is a huge step, though im fully aware its probably not forever

I could barely formulate sentences and was openly telling people I wanted to quit work and die yesterday . Today, I couldn't shut up because I was so hyper and was too distracted to actually be productive. A part of me just wants to have a breakdown so I have no choice but to get help. I hate my head and that I can't just sort this out. I don't know whether I should go and drink coffee so I can continue to feel awesome like this, or drink wine so I can calm down and try and sleep. I can't even sit still right now, it feel like I want to crawl out of my skin.

Im not a professional on bipolar but the episodes dont often change that quickily one day the the next, they are aften a week or more at a time, some episodes can last months.

I think BPD moods fluctuate much more rapidly

They don't normally fluctuate this rapidly for me, it normally is weeks/months. Idk what's going on right now.

Now I'm drunk, still agitated but no longer happy. What a clever move. I'm such a pathetic excuse for a human being. Maybe I should impulse buy a load of **** to make myself feel better? LOL. What a fool. I want a break from my head and all of this nonsense. There is nothing actually wrong with me, I'm just pathetic.

Now I'm drunk, still agitated but no longer happy. What a clever move. I'm such a pathetic excuse for a human being. Maybe I should impulse buy a load of **** to make myself feel better? LOL. What a fool. I want a break from my head and all of this nonsense. There is nothing actually wrong with me, I'm just pathetic.

Guess who's experiencing dystonia again.

Trying my best to hold it back without taking klonopin and failing.

I'm sorry it's still happening

Been taking cogentin which is meant to take 2-4 days to kick in. Been taking it for a week.

Though I did manage to control it on Saturday vs the party.


How're you doing?