Have been feeling proper down for a week now and I just dont know what to do. My family think everything is fine but I just can't get into it because they'd never understand. I have just been crying because I am just not feeling confident at all about everything about myself and I feel like everyone hates me.
Im just scared about growing up and thinking about it makes me throw up its that bad which I think that is my main thing that's making me feel like this. I barley have friends, no hobbies or anything and I just want to lay in bed to cry. Lockdown has caused so much issues now and it sucks so much but we are going to have regular lockdowns for a very long time and if not its just going to be permanent now. People aren't going to accept that lock won't go away but that's what it is unfortunately. The government aren't going to just lift it like that within the next 10 years. So everything just sucks so much, lockdowns and then the other **** I have as well like its just so ****.
My family are always happy but im just here crying everyday, they want me to go down and join them for a meal because its my parents wedding anniversary and I have sit there smiling like everything is ok but I'm far from it.