Mental Health Support Society XXI

So oops I ****ed up. My in person orthotist appt I put at the same time as my mum's mammogram (her final annual one!! Fingers crossed it's all clear). So tomorrow have to rearrrange it. Feel a bit dumb tbf.

its easy to do, im constantly double booking myself let alone taking into account other peoples appointments so dont feel dumb at all!!

Hopefully your mum gets the all clear!! Sending positive thoughts!!

She said the same. it'll be alright.

Hope so! Its been clear for a few years now, save for when she actually had cancer and the second one where she had some weird artefact so they had to do it again. Hopefully she gets to see her oncologist too and they can discuss coming off her medication. Then it'll be gone (hopefully forever ).

You should listen to her
I dont know how parents organise everyones lives so well i cant even organise my own life

It sounds positive then and its deffinately heading the right way so hopefully it does come back clear.
My mum had her mamogram a few weeks ago because i think shes high risk (im pretty sure her mum had breast cancer but i can never remember as she died a long time before i was born, but i know she had cancer. Mum doesnt really talk about that though, just what an amazing true northern woman she was)

Is just my anxiety worrying about being a nuisance, that's all. you're both right though for sure.

Yeah, high risk populations get them annually, that's why my mum has been getting them for the last few years, but hopefully she will go back to the standard stream. Sorry to hear about your nan, hope your mum's comes back clear.

Your not a nuiscence at all

Yeah i know she gets them but maybe not yearly im not sure? But here theyv put a big breast screening trailer in our local asda car park to help reduce the demand on the hospital so my mum went there this year.

Grandma died when my mum was 18 (though she was probably in her 60s as she had my mum super late my mum was deffinately not planned as she was nearly 10 years younger than her next oldest sibling) so allthough my mum still misses her, shes come to terms with it, i just wish she could have met us as apparently im so much like her, and look so much like her. My brother was the only one to meet my grandad aswell as he died when my brother was 6 months old, but again hed have been in his 70s so i guess that was kinda normal. But their memories still live on, and weve always spoken about them and the memories mum and our aunties and older cousins shared with us still made them be apart of our lives.

Thanks.

Could be. If she has the BRCA gene they often see people more often than the national...thing.

Aw man, that sounds so difficult to deal with at such a young age. I'm glad she's come to terms with it now though, time does help in that respect, even though it's still painful. People live on through their loved ones, you keep their memories alive definitely! I only ever met my nan properly, my mum's mum, she died when I was about 4 though.

Yeah its all to confusing to understand

Yeah i think time helps but it will never truly heal grief.
Yeah we only had my dads mum and dad, and even after my mum and dad divorced my grandad still called my mum his daughter in law which was really nice, but i dont think my granny ever really forgave her for divorcing my dad even though he was having an affair granny blamed my mum for breaking up the family but my granny was a methodist, or catholic i think (which made me laugh as shes burried in a church of england graveyard) so divorce was a big no no in her eyes.
Then we had my step dads mum and step dad who took us in and treat us like their own, which we always appreciated as my nanny was a big scouse matriach and could have very easily turned round and said no death sucks though dont it

The longer I keep going, the more pointless everything seems.

Are you safe?

yes. thank you.

Vomit TW


Also didn't sleep, so CBT later is going to be...strange. Considering it's CBT for insomnia, aha.

Hope CBT goes well