Confused with my sexuality (yes, it's that type of post)Watch
So I look at girls sometimes and find them attractive but don't see myself doing anything about it (don't see myself getting with a girl actually). I look at guys but damn, I get so flustered and blushy - I actually do see myself with a guy and am actively looking for my first BF (unfortunately nothing good came out of trying to get with someone at work so I've resorted to dating apps). I feel the attraction towards a guy. But here's the deal, to get off, I've been watching a lot of lesbian porn/kissing videos as I find them more sensual, slow-building and gentle. I've watched regular porn but the dude's bits just make me gag and I feel like just thinking about d*ck or what it would be like to have a guy enter me. Does that make me a lesbian or asexual? I am literally so confused.
First of all, it's not something to be ashamed of and it's ok to be confused at times. I'm going to assume you're young? (correct me if wrong) From the post it seems like you could be bi, but the other options are also plausible.
The best way to know is with time, everyone figures themselves out at different paces. Some people know they're gay at a young age, some figure it out much later. Some people think they are straight, then bi and then later realise they're gay. I for one didn't realise I was an ace lesbian until this year (I'm 17 very nearly 18 XD)
It's ok to change your mind on how you feel, you don't have to choose one label and stick with it for the rest of your life. I wouldn't stress too much, there is no deadline for figuring yourself out. Good luck, I'm sure you'll be fine
You don't have to label yourself as lesbian or asexual just as long as your happy in your skin its all good.
And you know what, you are totally right - there's no need to put a label on myself. I've been into labels recently which is so weird cuz in high school/teenage years, I never cared what I was as a person generally. And yeah like the anonymous #2 user, I come from a sort of strict religious background and you're taught that being straight is the only way and if you're anything else, you're doomed to hell lol. But then they teach that God loves all His children so I don't even know what's what anymore *shrug*.
Thanks so much for your advice and helping me through it. It means a lot