Out of it

I am so out of things. Like really out of things. On another level.

Passed my first year at uni. Dont really think i want to continue doing what i was doing, dont know what else i want to study. I need some time to think. But what i really need is an alternative life. I cant even articulate what I mean.

Anybody in another zone like me? Feel like you dont belong in this society? In this realm of education and things?

I anticipate an answer like, get a grip of reality. I feel that pressure, really. But i cant quite get it together. It doesnt make sense to me-- reality. Im not high by the way.

Reply 1

AustralAlien

13

Go out and get drunk, that's always a good laugh.

Reply 2

sakura_starfall

7

You mean you want the simple life where you don't have to go and get an education so you can get a job etc etc etc??

Reply 3

Anonymous #1

OP

No i mean i dont know what I want. I am deeply conflicted/confused. I cannot think right (now).

Reply 4

Joelie

Have you tried talking to someone who may be able to understand and explain the feelings your experiencing and shed some light onto a resolution??

A psychiatrist? A doctor? Even a local GP / Nurse??

It may help you...

Reply 5

sakura_starfall

7

how long is your course? why not carry on with it and try and figure things out along the way - if you dont know what else you want to study you might as well study this. What do you think has brought it on, relationship problems? Family issues? or is it just out of the blue?

Reply 6

Anonymous #1

OP

To Joelie, once to a counceller and actually i did talk to a gp about depression. But, they were useless and plus i dont think of it as depression. Its just the way that my mind works, the way that I am.

Sakura, i am considering this, but not sure whether i should waste money/time. My course is another 2 years. I dont know what has brought this on, just life, all of it.

Thank you both for your responses.

Reply 7

sakura_starfall

7

Anonymous

To Joelie, once to a counceller and actually i did talk to a gp about depression. But, they were useless and plus i dont think of it as depression. Its just the way that my mind works, the way that I am.

Sakura, i am considering this, but not sure whether i should waste money/time. My course is another 2 years. I dont know what has brought this on, just life, all of it.

Thank you both for your responses.

Hope it is helping a bit.
Well it depends, is your course one with good job prospects at the end of it? It's just I know what it's like when you don't do something then look back and wish you had done it. Is there anyone close to you you can talk to? If not there are people you can speak to like samaritans etc, i know you probably don't want to do it, but its unbelievable how they can help sometimes, especially as you don't have to do it face to face (this may be why it didn't work with the councellor).

Reply 8

Anonymous #1

OP

thanks, but i really dont know what they can say that someone else cant. I was just wondering if anybody felt the same.

And i was doing economics so i think it does have good job prospects, though i have no experience of working anywhere great.

Reply 9

Frenchflower

I occasionally feel this way. I thinks it's fairly normal when you're 'finding yourself' as a person, to doubt things and feel like you don't belong. Do you have many friends OP? Maybe you do need to see a counsellor, or maybe you're just questioning your life at the moment, because of all the decisions you have to make at this time. Do you find it easy to socialise with people and communicate easily?

Reply 10

Anonymous #1

OP

Frenchflower, thanks for your reply. I dont want to see a councellor, i saw one once for half an hour but dont want to do it.

I think i could socialise if i really wanted to but, at this moment in time, i find it is a big effort to act for people. If I was being completely real, I would find it very hard. Because like i said im out of things. Im sure people find me difficult to understand, and I find it hard to relate as well.

Reply 11

Anonymous #2

I think I know what you mean, I sacked my course after a year, I was doing really well but just can't seem to stick with anything. Sometimes I feel a bit out of it then other times I will be totally on the ball. Sometimes i'll sit in my house for days trying to avoid people and becoming totally paranoid and delusional that all my mates secretly can't stand me and thats why i'm on my own. Then other times i'll go out and become totally over confident and convinced that i'm the most popular person ever. Hmmm. I feel like my life isn't my own and its all speeding towards something and if I don't do something soon i'm going to end up working in my crappy non job forever, yet can't find the motivation to do anything about it. Everybody expects something of me and I keep trying to destroy any chance of meeting those expectations. Weird.

Reply 12

Anonymous #1

OP

You seem to be going through something similar, except i dont really have these confident days that you do.

I agree about the job thing and that you dont feel your life is your own. I feel blocked. When i think about it, I think its the very expectations that are destroying me. All the good feeling, aspirations, life, inside me have been replaced by fear...

Im seriously considering taking a year out of my course, and if i want to continue, do it next year, since i passed and i think its allowed (?). What did you do after your first year if you dont mind me asking?

Reply 13

Ilios_Lampros

8

finish uni and emmigrate

Reply 14

jaz_jaz

You have so much to look forward too (the fact that you've actually made it to Uni)
Maybe take a year out? Think?
Don't drop the course, you could regret it later.