My flatmates have already formed their own little cliques already, they have people round and they don't really talk to me. They'd think I'm weird for suggesting it
I've met lots of people and talked to them, but the majority of these people I don't see again afterwards. I've made 2 guy friends, but they both really like gaming, so play computer games in each others rooms but I'm not a gamer so I can't join in with them, and end up in my room alone for yet another night
I know I've worked towards this for a couple of years and can't give up after 2 weeks, and I know all anyone will say is I've got to stick it out and it'll feel better eventually, but I just can't see it happening at all. I just don't think uni is my thing. I have this anxious, knotty feeling in my chest the entire time, and even little things like working out how to use the laundrette make me feel really panicky, and the anxious feeling just keeps getting worse as time goes by, not better
I want to tell my mum how I feel but she'll just be disapointed in me
But I seriously can't see myself getting to the end of a 4 year course, or if I do I'll feel like I've wasted too much of my life in a place where I'm going to be completely miserable. I can barely see myself lasting to the end of the month! It doesn't help that when I go on the facebook profiles of my friends from home, it looks like they're all having the time of their lives, it's just me that really wishes I could go back.
I don't think I ever gave proper thought to whether I personally wanted to go to uni or not, I just assumed I did because that's what everyone else does. All our teachers talked about as soon as I got into 6th form was uni this, uni that. As if the whole world revolved around going to university. I think I've been brainwashed
I hate this place.