depo shot, anyone else had a bad experience like this ?

I'm hoping someone can help me,

i had my first depo shot in october 2020, first few weeks i felt great because i didn't experience any side effects atal.

i was feeling ok until i had my second shot in January. Pretty soon after that second shot everything has changed.

I was so happy in my relationship with my boyfriend before i changed my birth control to the depo and now i'm even questioning weather i even love him? my sex drive has completely gone, this is so strange because i was the happiest ever before i had this evil shot. Sometimes i don't even want my boyfriend near me so i send him away, then when i send him away i cry my eyes out because i love him but there's a voice in my head telling me i don't? I am just so confused right now and don't know what to do, i have read online that this has happened to other people aswell, my boyfriend is so supportive and has done research himself about this so he has an idea of why i might be feeling this way about him and hes gonna support me through this. I was just wondering if anyone has felt this way then their feelings have came back when the shot has wore off? i hope so because i want to be with him but right now i just don't feel right about us.

Its also important to mention that i cry all the time now and just feel so down and not my usual happy bubbly self.

thank you for any answers