PGCE

(Original post by Kitkat_98)
I started my PGCE in September 2020 and at first, I loved it. I thought it was great and, at the start, I LOVED my placement. Don't get me wrong, the children were lovely, but my mentor made my life so terrible I had to be moved schools early (we were supposed to leave at Easter but I got moved off at the start of January). I started my placement the week before half-term and I really enjoyed the first week, but I'm worried that I'm going to start hating it. The reason that the first one broke down is because someone told my mentor that I didn't like her and she then didn't like me (I didn't say this and she actually told my AT this....)

I feel like I'm so behind as a consequence, which is really annoying and the confidence I had is completely shot because of this woman (I know I shouldn't let her get to me, but it's hard not too). I'm trying not to throw a pity party, but I just dunno what to-do.

I didn't do an education degree, I did a business degree and I've found that I really miss doing that, so I'm looking at doing a masters in business. I think that's half the issue, if I was in secondary school teaching, it would be easier because it would be a specialist subject, but I also couldn't think of anything worse....

Obviously, I should be looking at NQT placements but I feel so behind, I don't have the placement reference and everyone has done way more than me, I am literally the only one out of 250 people that has had to move, I knew it would be hard, but the pressure I was under from my mentor was another level. My AT says that the new tutor won't play games with me, but appearing half-way through the term makes me feel awkward, like everyone knows I've failed (that being said they've been very welcoming). I just dunno, can I defer my NQT year?