Is this weird?Watch
Ok so I’m a guy (17 rn). Now when I was younger (2-3 years ago) I was pretty fat and chubby, with more feminine features like thick thighs, a pretty (thicc) butt and fat around my chest that made it look like...well breasts.
Now very often when my dad (straight male) would offer to massage my back (ngl many times I asked as well). He’d massage my back but while doing so he’d also sort of massage my butt and like squeeze it, which felt really really weird. And if he was drunk, he’d massage my butt even weirder (like using his arms?). He usually would even darken the room, and if someone came in he’d switch over to massaging my back or my legs, which felt really shady as if he was caught doing something wrong.
Then on some other occasions if we were in the jacuzzi, I’d ask him to rub some scrub on my back he’d take it a step further and rub it on my chest. Like he would be standing behind me, have his arms come around from my neck, and then scrub my chest - which seemed like a VERY weird position now that I think about it. It also was a very weird scrub - without being too disgusting about it his hands sort of caused a jiggling motion? This only happened on occasions when he had a little to drink.
Am I overthinking this or is this weird? Was it sexual?? I’ve stopped having any jacuzzis or asking him to massage. And he’s stopped to offer now too - I assume this is because I’m no longer having any of those feminine features (lost 20kgs!!) and am pretty skinny now.
Also he’s straight so why would he be sexually weird to a guy. Idk this another TSR post just made me think about these collection of incidents. Am I marring the memories of a seemingly harmless son-father relation?