Hi so I’m 18 and female.
I’ve had a difficult time with friendships in my life so far,
I have had a lot of friendships come and go, I have lost a few friends due to arguments that were not my fault.
At the moment I am content within myself however I have to admit that the friends I have now are only temporary, I am settling until I find some people that I hopefully really get on with, I just feel like I’ve met a lot of temporary friends in my life that I never completely vibed with however, I notice other people around me seem to have more secure friendships that they have more in common with. I am a party person however the friends I have now are not party people and so really, I feel like these are just temporary friends that I don’t have enough in common with. I want to find friends that are girly like me and like to talk about makeup and partying and not just school work. That is not to say that’s I am not grateful for the friends I have now- of course I am I’m just worried that for some reason I seem to find it harder than most people to find my group of people. My friendships on average last around 1 year before an argument happens, or I feel like we don’t have anything in common anymore and I have outgrown that person.
On a side note I’ve looked through a list of autistic traits and I don’t really identify with the following;
Sensory issues
Stimming
Get upset if routine is changed
Literal and rigid thinking
Special interests
However, I do overthink a lot, I have anxiety and depression but that has calmed down a lot recently.
I also have to admit that I enjoy being by myself a lot of the time as well as being around others, it just worries me that thIs isn’t normal for someone of my age.
The last thing I’d like to add Is that I feel like nowadays I notice autism and adhd seem to be diagnosed an awful lot, I have been with camhs in the past and around 50% of the therapists I saw thought I was autistic and 50% I saw said I wasn’t. In high school my school were very focused on labelling people and were adamant about giving me an LSA and diagnosing me with autism to the point that they literally started making up symptoms that I didn’t have. This past experience troubled me.
Thanks