Please help me, I'm panicking like crazy and I'm not sure what to do.
I started my sixth-form about 2 years ago and I'm currently approaching the end of year 13. However, for the past year I have been extremely depressed and out-of-touch with both reality and my grades. This is because my A-levels as they are now simply do not permit me to pursue things that I am interested in, for example, medicine. I have offers for several universities but I haven't firmed or insured any of those either because I knew this day would come. My sixth-form gave us the opportunity to switch subjects early in year 12, but I was too slow and I was too scared of committing to STEM because I thought I sucked at it. I ignored the urges and now I'm paying the price. Only now have I decided that I want to re-apply to colleges and pursue my dream.
There are several issues with this. I am almost 18, it's mid-April, I am in the middle of an exam-period, and I really can't afford to pay for A-level courses. However, I may consider getting a job if I had to pay for the second year.
Is there a problem if I have already completed A-levels? Should I drop out of my current sixth-form now as to avoid having previous qualifications? Is it even worth it to sit my current exams? I haven't been doing well and I don't mind discarding 2 years, but I also think that it would be a safety net. Sorry for the rambling, I can't find many places to apply to in London, and would love recommendations. I just don't want to give up.