Worried about the fact I do no extracurricular activities...Watch
I'm too anxious to start participating in anything now because social situations with mostly unfamiliar people cause intense anxiety to the point that I come off as rude and/or stupid and give off a bad impression.
Also, if I did join something (in terms of when things aren't socially distanced), it'd be a hassle, and possibly impossible, to get there, due to a lack of transport available to me (I'd rather not explain it; it's a bit complicated).
I really want to improve my social skills because I'm considering a career in the police, since I've had an interest in crime for a while now, so I'd need to have good social skills. However, I'm worried that, now, I'm already too late in joining in on some extracurriculars and improving my social skills.
I'm too embarrassed to talk to people IRL about it, because I act normal/confident in front of familiar people. I've talked about my social ineptitude in some of my counselling sessions, but the tips my counsellor gave me are things that I just can't do.
Honestly, this is really stressing me out and I don't know what to do...
I can't even stop myself from thinking about how I'm just going to fail at everything because I'm a socially inept mess of a person who's too afraid to participate in anything because I can't just forget about it or distract myself.
I can't take this for much longer.
Always good to push out of your comfort zone and start something tho, helps the anxiety and gives confidence (I recommend a MMA or something which gives you physical confidence and security)
And for future job applications, whatever you apply for you are going to need some sort of experience. Every single application asks for examples of skills and every interview asks for these as well. When you get to university it is so easy to join extra curricular activities. In your first week you will walk around a massive hall and everyone club and sports team will be there trying to get you to sign up. And most of these clubs and teams have zero expectation of any experience.
So you do need some experience at some point, but you have 5 years to get it.