Me (F18) and my boyfriend (M18) have been dating for 7 months now but we have known each other for all of high school. We love each other and it’s evident that we care for each other and we try to see each other often because we love seeing one another.
One thing I should note is that he has depression. I have been trying my best to be supportive and being there for him whenever he needs me and I don’t push him to do anything forcefully. I have always tried to create a safe and comforting environment for him in ways for him to cope with his depression. For various reasons, he is not seeing a professional for his depression despite me constantly telling him if will help him.
So whenever there is something wrong or bothers me, I always try to bring it up very nicely or in a way that it doesn’t burden him but he knows that something is upsetting me. Let me give you an example: sometimes he will sleep for long periods of time (a day and a half) and then wake up go to work then go home maybe hang with friends or just do his own thing. During this period he won’t contact me at all. He won’t speak to me, call me back, or text me a single thing. I eventually bring this up and tell him that it would mean a lot to me if he can communicate better so I know what’s going on. This is what he replies with: “i’m sorry” “i’m so useless” “why don’t you break up with me” “i don’t treat you well” but never really does anything to change this.
Now the problem is that we have been trying to make plans to get lunch together because it’s our anniversary. Since he has a hard time waking up, I told him in advance about the plans so he can make sure to wake up for it. I wanted to get lunch at 1 so he should at least wake up at 12. I live about 40 minutes away and I was willing to drive to his town to get lunch. The day before he said he picked up a shift at work but it’s at 5 so I wouldn’t have to worry. But I had a feeling he wouldn’t make it because this has happened before. He even stayed up late the night before to hang out with his friends last minute and then I woke up on the day of our lunch date around 10 to get ready and I wait for him to respond and he doesn’t. He eventually texts me at 4 saying he’s sorry. If I tell him how I feel about this, and tell him that he needs to be more reliable he will just say “yeah” “it sucks” and stuff like that because that’s what he’s always said.
In my opinion, he’s very unreliable but I feel bad for telling him because he has depression and I don’t want to make him feel bad. But whenever I do bring stuff up he plays more like victim card and says “you can find someone better” or just say “yeah” “okay” and stays quiet like he wants me to fix everything.
What do i do?
TL;DR my boyfriend is unreliable and doesn’t follow through with plans. he has depression and i don’t want to make him feel bad but when i do say something he never fixes it