things never seem to get betterWatch
Was diagnosed with depression in october, but been without friends for a long time. Years. I've been trying to make progress. I was recently diagnosed with aspergers which made me feel worse. My ex, who i've been close to, is now talking to a new guy (we split up in august last year but still kept close and there was always the possibility of us getting back together). meanwhile, the third date i was meant to go on has been cancelled, and i have nothing. noithing to do. all i do is sit at home, i cry myself to sleep, because i cannot bare the loneliness. I hate this life. I just want a different one. I'm told I should be grateful for having a stable family and good education etc, and whilst i am glad in that regard, as to education, being intelligent has never made me happy. i've grown up far too quickly, i'm 18 and supposed to start university in autumn. if i have to wait til then to make friends or do anything, i mean i cant even seem to get a job....i'm done with life.