I am like an empty shell- I don't really think much and there's nothing that I am good at.
Other people can sense it- it makes them feel bad. I would never want a partner if I was going to cause them emotional suffering- I don't want to hurt someone that I love :/
Sometimes when I have bad days I think I am putting her through too much and if I loved her I wouldn't be so selfish and keep her. But she doesn't see it like that, she wants to help and she would never leave me if I said I thought I was bringing her down, because that's a permanent choice based on a temporary feeling. But she has had her own mental health struggles as well, you will find someone who understands you. I hope you're getting the help you need