Hi, I graduated with a Physics degree last year, and started working in a trainee tech consultancy role a few months after. The first few months at this job were great, but I've hit a wall. Due to having to work remotely, I've mostly been left to train myself, with some shadowing and some work I've lead myself.
I've got all I can out of the shadowing and the independent work, my boss keeps telling me that I need to lead more engagements both on my own and supervised, but I'm not being given any because I don't have enough experience doing them. I keep asking for more work to no avail, and now the past few months I've fallen into bad habits and lost confidence in what I have learnt. I'm sick of feeling like I'm getting nowhere, I'm not even sure if this is what I want to do in the future, and I'm afraid that the way it's going now isn't sustainable. I'm constantly anxiously waiting for the day they realise I don't have much to do, and decide to let me go.
I don't know what to do from here. If I were to apply for other jobs I don't even know what I'd want. I seem to have missed the boat on almost all of the graduate jobs near me, and any entry level ones that I might be qualified for would be a step down pay-wise which I cannot afford right now. Part of me wants to spend the time I've got nothing to do wisely and start a course or something, but again I don't even know what I'd study. I don't feel passionate about any career really. I feel trapped, it's really affecting my mental health and I have no idea what to do, any advice would be greatly appreciated.