I didn't know where to post this so I found this site, which I'm hoping would help me and my dilemmas.
I'm currently starting my third year of university and don't have any friends except for one person in uni, who I met in high school. She's going to France to study abroad, which means I can't rely on her nor can I have her as somewhat of a buffer (we're both very socially awkward, but when we have each other we're braver).I was told that first year would be great for joining societies, meeting people in Fresher's and making friends with people in my flat. I have done all of these things, yet have no one to show for it. I didn't get on great with my flatmates (there was no hostility there, I am just extremely socially awkward), I am disabled which means my idea of fun is staying home and having drinks, playing tabletop board games or random video games. I met people in societies and stuff, but we'd text back and forth a couple of times and it would stop there.
I was more hopeful in second year, because I was somewhat advised (by the internet, of course) that first year wasn't the be-all, end-all. I have met no one. Corona hit, but I feel like I wouldn't have been able to make friends anyway because I am socially awkward. I'm now planning on moving back into student accommodation, but can only move in with first years because of my disability and no accessible accommodation.
I'm feeling very down about this. I know that I could try harder to assimilate with the new flatmates, but I'm also aware that it's weird to be this far into university life (3rd year) without any friends to show for it and even if I manage to make friends with them, we'd be in very different stages of life (I'd graduate within two years, they'd graduate two years after me). I don't want to be the loser flatmate who is in 3rd year with no friends and feeling desperate to hang out with 1st years. I also don't want to start lying to them and pretending I have a social life outside of them.
TL;DR: I have social anxiety and this affects me greatly when meeting new people. I behave awkwardly, and this has gotten worse over the past years so even the friends I did have have somewhat distanced themselves. I don't know what to do with this whole 3rd year/no friends thing, because it seems so late into university life to try and make new friends, and even if I manage to (which is highly unlikely), I don't know what to do from there about trying to maintain these relationships without coming across as a friendless loser. Would much appreciate any advice, but please be gentle and helpful (not to sound too pathetic lmao) because I'm feeling very hopeless right now.