Too scared to open results in case a 2:2Watch
Basically, earlier this year I had a huge knock to my confidence when I got a horribly low grade in a project, the lowest I've ever had at university. I had covid at the time of writing it and was really struggling with symptoms, mother was in hospital and other personal stuff going on. I also had a useless tutor who gave me next to no guidance so the project was awful to be honest. I got BofE consideration due to my circumstances but my appeal was rejected.
My final piece of work handed in I think was a lot better, I was essentially told that as long as I got a decent grade in this, I'd be fine for a 2:1 which put an insane amount of pressure on this one piece of work. All my other grades are low 2:1s so I don't have much room for mess ups, and yes I know this part is my fault. Part of it is down to personal stuff I was dealing with but I'd be lying if I said I genuinely worked my hardest all throughout uni, and I really regret that now.
So with this final piece of work (4000 word project, 20 credits), I harassed my new supervisor lol who was actually really good and I put everything I had into it and generally feel much more secure about it. He edited drafts, sent me literature to use and made some really important corrections with some of the theories I was using. With the other project I honestly felt like I was wondering around blind, that other tutor was useless, never answered emails and scheduling calls was a nightmare. I know by now the results will be back and I'm too scared to open it, even though I'm already on my grad scheme and they take 2:2s so it literally doesn't matter but it just really sucks that after my years of hard work, I could come out with a grade that doesn't reflect that. After the crap project mark my confidence has plummeted and I'm scared I did terribly in this as well meaning I'll get dragged down to a 2:2.
I know a 2:2 isn't the end of the world, this grad scheme is a two year contract and by the time I'm onto doing other jobs, they'll be far more interested in that than a grade from uni but it's been really affecting my mental health regardless, struggling to eat and sleep and enjoy my days. I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced this or has any words of advice?
Student life, in partnership with UEA
Maybe write down on paper what you’ll do if it is a 2:2 so don’t have to work it out after