sleep paralysis in islam

hi, i’m a 18 year old girl who was born into a muslim family. growing up, islam was forced onto me too much to the point where i turned away from it. i wanted to start loving it at my own pace and wanted to start following the rules when IM ready. so i stopped praying, i started doing haram things etc,.. especially because i live in a christian country.
i really wanted to get back into islam and i would cut off haram things and pray again but that would only last a couple of days before i went back to how i used to be.

but i got sleep paralysis 2-3 times over the course of the last couple of years. it happened again two nights ago. i dreamt that i fell into a lake and was drowning. i couldn’t hear or see or swim, i was drowning and i knew i was dying. i subconsciously realized it’s a dream and wanted to wake up, but it didn’t work, i literally felt the water on my body that’s when i thought it’s not a dream but i’m actually dying. i couldn’t recite any verse from the quran even though i know many. i didn’t feel any pressure like smth (jinn) was sitting on me. i kept thinking ‘oh i wish i had been a better muslim before i died’ .. i don’t know what to think at all.. is it a sign from allah swt?

hi, i’m a 18 year old girl who was born into a muslim family. growing up, islam was forced onto me too much to the point where i turned away from it. i wanted to start loving it at my own pace and wanted to start following the rules when IM ready. so i stopped praying, i started doing haram things etc,.. especially because i live in a christian country.
i really wanted to get back into islam and i would cut off haram things and pray again but that would only last a couple of days before i went back to how i used to be.

but i got sleep paralysis 2-3 times over the course of the last couple of years. it happened again two nights ago. i dreamt that i fell into a lake and was drowning. i couldn’t hear or see or swim, i was drowning and i knew i was dying. i subconsciously realized it’s a dream and wanted to wake up, but it didn’t work, i literally felt the water on my body that’s when i thought it’s not a dream but i’m actually dying. i couldn’t recite any verse from the quran even though i know many. i didn’t feel any pressure like smth (jinn) was sitting on me. i kept thinking ‘oh i wish i had been a better muslim before i died’ .. i don’t know what to think at all.. is it a sign from allah swt?

Hi sister. I’m sorry but you’re asking the wrong forum, all you will get here is Kufar bashing you for your faith. i would recommend that you make sure to always recite ayat ul kursi and the Last 4 surahs (Kafiroon, Ikhlas, Falaq, Nas) before bed. If you really want to get into your faith again you should repent for all your sins and to never be proud of them, we are all sinners by nature but feeling guilt from them is the sign of Iman. At the end of the day i am not experienced or knowledgeable at all so i’d recommend talking to a sheikh. May Allah Guide You, Ameen.

Kafiroon is not one of the last four chapters. But I get the idea.

hi, i’m a 18 year old girl who was born into a muslim family. growing up, islam was forced onto me too much to the point where i turned away from it. i wanted to start loving it at my own pace and wanted to start following the rules when IM ready. so i stopped praying, i started doing haram things etc,.. especially because i live in a christian country.
i really wanted to get back into islam and i would cut off haram things and pray again but that would only last a couple of days before i went back to how i used to be.

but i got sleep paralysis 2-3 times over the course of the last couple of years. it happened again two nights ago. i dreamt that i fell into a lake and was drowning. i couldn’t hear or see or swim, i was drowning and i knew i was dying. i subconsciously realized it’s a dream and wanted to wake up, but it didn’t work, i literally felt the water on my body that’s when i thought it’s not a dream but i’m actually dying. i couldn’t recite any verse from the quran even though i know many. i didn’t feel any pressure like smth (jinn) was sitting on me. i kept thinking ‘oh i wish i had been a better muslim before i died’ .. i don’t know what to think at all.. is it a sign from allah swt?

It's not a sign from anyone or anything. Sleep paralysis is a phenomenon that happens to people of all religious beliefs as well as to those who don't believe in any faith.

well said mr celtic

however @Justaboutalive maybe you know

hi, i’m a 18 year old girl who was born into a muslim family. growing up, islam was forced onto me too much to the point where i turned away from it. i wanted to start loving it at my own pace and wanted to start following the rules when IM ready. so i stopped praying, i started doing haram things etc,.. especially because i live in a christian country.
i really wanted to get back into islam and i would cut off haram things and pray again but that would only last a couple of days before i went back to how i used to be.

but i got sleep paralysis 2-3 times over the course of the last couple of years. it happened again two nights ago. i dreamt that i fell into a lake and was drowning. i couldn’t hear or see or swim, i was drowning and i knew i was dying. i subconsciously realized it’s a dream and wanted to wake up, but it didn’t work, i literally felt the water on my body that’s when i thought it’s not a dream but i’m actually dying. i couldn’t recite any verse from the quran even though i know many. i didn’t feel any pressure like smth (jinn) was sitting on me. i kept thinking ‘oh i wish i had been a better muslim before i died’ .. i don’t know what to think at all.. is it a sign from allah swt?

Lol i used to get sleep paralysis a lot.
Tbh what Op describes sounds more like a bad dream, i used to feel pressure and paralysis but it all passed, its nothing to be afraid of.

As for what OP said, she felt a feeling of wanting to be a better muslim, , it may or may not be a sign but she could think of this as a reminder or even a wakeup call to be a better muslim too. I would support that decision .

Can’t lie this could possibly be a sign

TRUST ME THIS IS A SIGN!!!!!!!

hi, i’m a 18 year old girl who was born into a muslim family. growing up, islam was forced onto me too much to the point where i turned away from it. i wanted to start loving it at my own pace and wanted to start following the rules when IM ready. so i stopped praying, i started doing haram things etc,.. especially because i live in a christian country.
i really wanted to get back into islam and i would cut off haram things and pray again but that would only last a couple of days before i went back to how i used to be.

but i got sleep paralysis 2-3 times over the course of the last couple of years. it happened again two nights ago. i dreamt that i fell into a lake and was drowning. i couldn’t hear or see or swim, i was drowning and i knew i was dying. i subconsciously realized it’s a dream and wanted to wake up, but it didn’t work, i literally felt the water on my body that’s when i thought it’s not a dream but i’m actually dying. i couldn’t recite any verse from the quran even though i know many. i didn’t feel any pressure like smth (jinn) was sitting on me. i kept thinking ‘oh i wish i had been a better muslim before i died’ .. i don’t know what to think at all.. is it a sign from allah swt?