Making friends at uni was impossible (rona didn't help)Watch
I don't like to be hateful to people and I was constantly giving the benefit of the doubt, even when people I thought I was close with were constantly leaving me out. The few friends I made on my course all turned nasty and/ or silent on me for some reason and my people I met my accommodation, including my flat were so cliquey. Whenever I would tell anyone, they were surprised saying they thought I was so close with my flat, which I thought too but clearly not. It had gotten so lonely I can't even think of uni without getting extremely anxious and just try to forget it happened. I'm not sure if I wasn't trying hard enough or if I tried to hard. I definitely got unlucky with the people I met, but I'm terrible at making friends so I stayed comfortale with the people I met, but now with how many people turned on me, I have such bad anxiety with trying to make friends and dont't even want to complete uni. I just want to know (and hope) I'm not the only one who has had a horrible experience with people at uni, especially with the cliqueynss I had encountered, which lots of people said didn't even happen at uni. I don't want to just blame everyone else around me but taking the blame or being left out and such only made me feel worse.