I want to get my own place but can't afford to 😭Watch
I've never had a boyfriend or any kind of relationship. No one is interested in me and I don't have any friends ( I have a few on Facebook but never talk to they have their own lives and have social anxiety. I also have no family I can stay with that understand me.
Anyway, I want to move out and get my own place somewhere safe preferably near my family but I can't afford to. I'm self employed with 2 jobs I enjoy but don't make enough money to support myself so I don't pay bills/rent etc. I just don't feel part of my family, I want to live on my own. I know I will never meet anyone to share my life with and I am ok with that. I'll be fine on my own with a few pets (which I can't get now due to landlord and financial situation) if I could get my own place and have some pets I'd be happy .
I've applied for employed work but can't seem to get an interview for anything even when applying for jobs that don't require experience and remote jobs but nothing. I graduated from a masters in September.
I feel like this will never happen, I will be stuck here for life and be unhappy. Plus if I do manage to get a job that pays well, how will I move out? My mum would never allow it. I'm from an Asian background and women can't live alone unless they're married or divorced/their partner died and have kids.
I don't know what to do except keep applying for jobs and hope I am successful soon or hope I meet someone eventually who would support me financially. I can't live like this for the rest of my life. I rarely go out unless it's to shop or run errands so there's no chance of meeting anyone. I used to go out more before covid like to college/uni and on my own I would visit parks and places in my city, shopping but since covid I only shop or run errands. Can't afford to go anywhere else atm.
I've joined a few online groups of things I like, like video games, introvert groups etc in hopes to meet someone, i try to comment on posts that I can relate to when I can and reply to comments but not really made tried online dating but guys are mostly looking for one thing or short term which I'm not interested in. Even tried Muslim dating apps with no luck- I can't even get past sign up process they won't approve my profile. I'm trying out discord now too. I'm not sure what else to try. I'm so fed up of my life, I'd hoped I'd have met someone by now. Other introverted women are in relationships or are married but not me.