How do I get my life on track (second post)Watch
I think I might be autistic which is why I struggle making friends and my parents also sheltered me which didn't help either. It's been really difficult for me to try and hang out with people and I will literally do anything at this point but nothing ever happens in my life. First I thought I just had social anxiety and tried to fix it myself. I also plan on booking a doctors appointment sometime to see if they know what might be up with me.
I can't talk to my parents about it because they'll probably tell me that it serves me right for trying to ask him to come over and that I should have known that he would not be able to. My Mum seems to be depressed after she fell out with her Mum (my only living grandparent) over the fact that she was horrible to her when she was brought up.
I also want to go to university which at one point I was really keen on and thought I'd manage it but now I'm terrified that my problems are going to stoop me from being able to make friends hence why I'm trying to do that now so that it doesn't become overwhelming. I also want to go to get away from my parents because as much as I love them, they have a negative impact on me which I don't think they realise.
It's all driving me crazy right now, I'm literally doing nothing exciting every half term and when I finally decide I want to d something, everyone's too busy. It happened last half term as well - people were going to parties which I never get invited to and wouldn't want to go to anyway. If anyone knows how I can get out of this mess then god help me right now. I literally feel like nothing good will ever happen in my life at the moment.